Now where am i?

Boy life really has its uncertainties and we, a long road that leads to nowhere.
Sometimes I really wonder if everything is already planned or do i make the choices that affect me? When i change my mind over something, was it part of the plan or was it a ripple that changed the tides? Iwished one year would just pass by. i would gladly not go thru all the happy moments and just get a year closer to death so i dont have to witness myself wasting a year in ns =) OH well. time machines. i need one like right now. Oh on a side note. I wanna get a carrrrrrrrr. that shall be my first aim in life. Now to achieve it. Go Ben gooooooooo!